dad, wouldn't it be funny if you knew what I did behind those locked doors? and wouldnt it be funny if you knew every thought that went through my mind? it would be funny if you remembered all the shit you put me through. it would be even funnier if you knew what it has done to me. it wool be funny if you knew how many time I've killed you in my head. even funnier when you know how many times I have thought of suicide and how many times I've tried. it would be funny if you knew I harmed over you and if you knew how you make me feel everyday. or if you knew how it felt to be me. it will be funny when I have the last laugh and it will be funny when you realise you have lost your 'baby daughter'
bastard. I loved you so much it actually hurt and you threw it back in my face. you can't even finish a sentence without hurting me.
but you know something? I wouldn't have it any other way